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well well
i finally got some rest that i needed
it was nice to sleep till 1pm
and i slacked the entire day
been a long time since i've done that.
lol.

i dun understand why some ppl have 2 blogs
if they don't wish others to know bout certain things
then don't blog la
why bother to have another blog?
there's no point in being so secretive
when u wish to blog it out already
otherwise, just keep it to yourself.

well my sis has a blog
and i do read it... AT TIMES ONLY
for all u know, my sis probably reads my blog too
i won't be surprise if my mum does so too.
anyway, i'm not afraid of others viewing my blog
i mean, i typed all these for ppl to see afterall.
and maybe that's how i communicate with certain ppl
sometimes i wonder if i should set up a blog with my mum
so that we can communicate better
=x

after so much pushing around
chairpersons of projects were finally appointed
and it was a little expected that i won't be chairing any
other then SPree! and my concerts.
and eric was of coz made the camp chairperson
who else? he was the only one in IE comm. last yr
trish was made mmsp chair
finally convinced right!
lol. oh well
i'm already busy enough with my own corporate projects

oh gawd
i can't wait for the holidays to come
i need some break from school
some break from union
though i know union will still be running during hols
i think i'll spend some time wif old friends during the vacation
definitely missing my ex-classmates
and x-jumpers!
well gd thing there's gatherings with my ex-classmates soon.

oh. i love my sr excos
seriously. love them lots
except for that one selfish guy
i've got nth to comment bout him
he's still as stubborn even after so much had happened.
well unlike him, the rest of my sr excos are such nice ppl
thx for being so considerate bout my studies
and my corporate projects
i'll try my very very very best to help u all for projects k?
i won't let all the business teams die (:
or at least, i'll try

oh yes.
taking a moment here
to wish my brother choonwee
a happy birthday.
take things one step at a time
don't rush through things
because the result may not turn out as u expected

self-discipline
i guess it's very impt for those who chose the poly route
otherwise it's gonna be damn tough
lol. i realise it now
and i'd better start enforcing self-discipline on myself
study when i can!

i know plenty of ppl are waiting
because they love to watch me curse and swear on my blog
so here goes
as eric wanted an update
lol.

i've to admit it
i'm having trouble waking up at 6.30 in the morning
seriously, i hate that
let's just say i fit the description of a pig
except for the dirty part
and as a result
i've yet to appear in class at 8 since like....
2 weeks ago?!?
in fact, i onli go for classes like once a week!
it sounds bad doesn't it.

can't help it
my classes end early
and i always slp till at least 12pm

i hate ppl who ask for suggestion
and when we give them feedback
none is taken
then ask for wat
i'd rather u just tell us straight and waste less time
save the awful situations.

i feel like a puppet
being manipulated by ppl whom i thought were friends
and it's not a gd feeling
well i made some promises
i'm gonna jolly well keep them
because i don't wish to end up like some ppl
who gets despised in the end.

enough of these nonsense
i'd better get on with life
especially on the studies part
lol.
i've plenty to catch up
and MST is coming so soon

i wana take my driving test
and get a driving license
so will mr eric tan
pls hurry up and go to bbdc with me
to register for the basic theory test.
otherwise we might just have to wait till end of yr 3
when i'm going into NS
-_-
DRIVE LORRY AR!

~~it's always difficult to take the first step~~
~~when u do, u'll realise the second step is even tougher~~

i'm pissed off
but i'm not saying why
now i'm pissing you off ain't i?

this suck
because instead of choosing to enjoy life
i chose to be involved in so many things
and kill myself

i hate my course
i hate wat i'm learning
i hate everything bout school right now
because i dun understand a single thing
and i can't do my tutorials
i'm about to fail every single module

goodness
how unfit i've become
didn't realise it until i went for hockey today
and i had difficulty running up and down the pitch
almost couldn't catch my breath.
now i'm wondering how i'm going to "fight" my way in poly50 team
el oh el

i've yet to recover from my cough
maybe farhan is right
i might be dying soon
i hope tomorrow.

well things haven't been going too well for me
as in, physically
my dad was sent to A&E on mon due to some high fever
and then the next morning, i was down too
cough cough and cough
that's wat i've been going through for the past 2 days.

i skipped school
like nobody's business
i think my bad habit is coming back
and i'm trying so hard to change
so hard that i'm giving up any moment
lol.

and as for my life
i'm ok
life's a bitch
u can't have everything going ur way
all i hope for is that things go fine for me
that's all.
like i said
gd friends are hard to come by
i'll try to cherish them if i do find any
oops.

oh yeah
if anyone do tag my blog
pls do so with ur name?
PLEASE?
haha. or at least let me know through msn
or i'll feel abit insecure =x
NO! PLS DON'T STOP TAGGING!
lol.

i'm pretty much satisfied wif my committee i guess
none had pissed me off yet
notice i use the word YET
anyway, i'm pleased with the entire council as well
except for some!
the way they do things, they way they speak
i mean, u can give plenty of excuses, or talk alot
but when ppl don't do wat they say
it simply potrays a bad image of themselves.
that's all i'm gonna say

eek
i'm so jealous
coz i bought such a nice bag for my son as a bday present
well, of coz shared cost
but i'm still jealous
because my birthday falls during the hols every year
and i dun get any present!
boo hoo hoo!
lol

well i'm gone
gonna get started with my assignment
it's due this week
and friday's a HOLIDAY!
that means tml's the deadline! argh.

in order to please seniors
friends can speak ill of u behind ur back
in order to outlast you
friends can backstab you
in order to please a gal
friends can ignore you
in order to make sure that u don't get in the way
friends can betray you

gd friends are hard to come by

i'm sick and tired
after going through so much for the past few days
i was wondering why i broke down
only to realise how disappointed i was
wat i had said
wat i had done
was not going to help at all.

life is full of choices
none is wrong
it's just how u overcome the obstacles
and how u face the situations.
i know i made a tough choice
but there's nth much i can do now
except to look forward
and try my best to salvage watever situation i'm in.

been an exhausting week for me
haven't been to lessons for 3 out of 4 days
i broke my promise
yet again
well, i'll try to make it up
as soon as all this crap is over

be a humble person
be a gd friend
be the most wonderful person ever on earth
and hope for the best.

i'm lost
like ever.

it's just so fustrating to see how things have become
and i'm just so disappointed at how things turned out today
not only that,
i was disappointed thrice in a day
so upset that i starting to think if everything i did was right

i simply hate ppl who make empty promises right now
because it can cause so much trouble for others
and if these irresponsible ppl don't change for the better
they'll definitely lose my trust very soon.
yes
i'm pissed off
because after going through so much
certain ppl still don't understand the logic of keeping their promises
it's just that simple ain't it?

i wanted to help that's all
and i was disappointed
when of all ppl
i wasn't even approached
i still made it a point to find a chance to talk
and right now,
i wish i could take everything that i said back
because if u needed my advice, u would have looked me up
but u didn't. so what's the point?
i give up

we are all gd friends
or probably even best friends.
i don't understand why things must go out of hand
when it's just a small matter
do all these problems weigh much more then our friendship?

at the end of the day
i'm just disappointed
because the person whom i thought would listen to me most
was the person who refused to finish listening to me
i don't blame u
for we all have different characters
at the end of the day, it's still up to u if u wish to accept wat i said anot

still
i wish all these would be over soon
and things can go back to how it was
when nth could destroy our friendship
when we were still united,
willing to help one another out.

for some
it may be unfortunate
i chose to take up the role in the end
because i felt that someone had to do the job
and in this case, it was me.
i'm not too sure if i'll regret this
but i'll be keeping my fingers crossed
that things would go fine for me.

to sum it all
it's all for the sake of making union better then ever.

finally the camps are all over
no more weekend stayovers
no more camp stuffs to worry about

and here comes the largest problem that everyone is expecting.

to accept the job now is definitely not easy for me
i'm racking my brains right now
to try to make a decision by tml morning
but it's just so difficult

the passion makes me feel like staying
after working for so long
i can't bear to leave my friends behind
much less the union that i love.

so if i were to take up the job
would i face more problems?
can i handle the responsibilities?
will i be able to handle the politics?
will my studies be affected?
must i give up my other commitments?
and, will i have less time to spend with my family.

so many questions
yet no answer.
how confusing.

the 1 hr long talk wif my mum didn't really help
i thought i could get some answers from her
but she returned me the question.
and i hate it when she brought up the religion stuff again
i shouldn't have gave her the opportunity =x
anyhow, i think she gave me some useful advice (:

i'm going to slp
because i'm very tired
and i've got classes till 4
hopefully when i get up tml morning
i'll make a decision
and may it be the right one.