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shaggrified.
i'm having a tough time right now
in sch, at home, watever la.

busy day for spsu?
3 inter-cons games going on,
movie marathon for union mth,
project meetings.
lol.

well i had captain's ball first
my teammates actually suggested to allow opponents to walkover
coz many couldn't make it
and we were already out of the competition.
i just don't like the way they handle such matters
competitions are organised, competitors are expected to complete all games
be it they win or not.
and i thought it was only basic sportsmanship by playing our last game
even if we can't qualify?
and so i did, 5 guys against 6 from cadc (they had 2 gals)
well we lost
but at least we had fun
laughter
and most of all, sportsmanship (:

the same thing happened for basketball inter-cons
only 6 turned up
8 if u include yongshun and alex
so we only had 1 sub, with 5 players
and i mus say i seriously admire every players' courage
for playing the game against sports club today
though we lost again
25-36, not a bad scoreline afterall?
we were a much weaker team, with 1 sub
they had a full team, with more capabilities (:
i finally scored my first point in the game
7 points in total, 2 3-pointers =P
and we mus seriously thank yongshun for organising the team.
and thank you to all my teammates,
or rather brothers.

i would say we, if not i, lost with pride
no i'm not proud because we lost
i'm proud because i've got wonderful teammates
we all played our best
and fought with everything we had
and because of that
i'm proud of my teammates (:

let's sidetrack from inter-cons
and union
been rather slacky still
i'm starting to get back on track for lessons
i missed sch on tues, not on purpose though
somehow i just overslept.
and skipped GEM, i just felt like it
i would be slping in class even if i attend lecture
well, at least i'm making progress in going for lessons.

i was reminded that it's week 13 already
which means there's 3 weeks left on the academic year
and exams are due in 4 weeks
that's fast.
i'd better start my preparations
before i start panicking like i did for MST 2.

so great
my last hockey match got postphoned
it was 0-0 at 15 mins, and it rained like hell
accompanied by thunder and lightning
how troublesome.
i dun mind the match restarting from the 1st min
coz we should have made the scoreline 2-0 by 15 mins
lol.

shit!
i missed sch again
not on purpose seriously
i had my medication and it made me totally drowsy
so much that i slept all the way till 3pm.
-_-

i just realised i'm in serious deep shit
saw the attendance sheet for maths
it was horrible
and i received letters for 3 modules already
i'd bet my attendance for other modules are below 75% as well
i'm gonna get screwed so soon.

thank you ah ma
i appreciate ur advices and i know u care
i'll try hard to complete my first year.
and also thanks to my friends who are trying to help me alot
not forgetting my hockey friends as well
haikal, johan and sham
it's nice to have them
always there to encourage me
even though i did badly in all 3 games.
but i'm still waiting for my 3 goals
lol!

so tml's my final match
sian. the thought of being unable to qualify for semi-finals sucks
and i thought we could win Police
but the match ended up in a draw
yeah. my mistake i guess
hopefully we beat this last team.

aye ref! he hit my hand!
aye ref! he fouled!
aye ref! i didn't touch him!
kp la.
u referee or i referee
i be ppl keep making noise
i dun be ppl say the other ref cannot make it
THEN WHO BE
i know some ppl play games can get over-excited
i do sometimes get agitated too
but can dun keep shouting at referees?

i'm seriously having a stuck up life right now
no motivation to study at all
and i just feel like giving everything up
i dun wish to waste my 11 years of eduction either
but it's just so tempting to put everything aside
and give it all up.

projects here
assignments there
how to survive with deadlines for almost every module i'm taking?
already 4 projects and assignments due in 2 weeks
and i can't cope
there's more coming i guess.
and my classmates aren't helping by giving me the slightest idea of wat's happening
everyday is a life of backstabbing
how motivating.

oh yes
lucky for me
lesson from 3-5 have been changed to 11-1 tml
so i'm having a so called break from 3 onwards
aside from inter-cons and the dodgeball game
then will be my hockey match at 8pm
which we can hopefully win.

seriously ppl
quit making other's life difficult
i know it's enjoyable to see others work their hearts out
while u slack around
turn it the other way round
and see how u feel.

wtf
8-1
same feeling as ivp
dammit. i just hate thrashings
against my team.
oh well
at least i'm glad i took the ball past the keeper
before my teammate scored =P

i'm getting the same respsonse whenever i go to classes
"hi, it's been a long time i've seen u"
or something like that.
like wtf?
i know i've been skipping lessons
but i really didn't mean to!
i mean, it's not easy to wake up early with flu
it's like having a hangover.
ok, excuse

anyway
it's just so tempting to skip lessons
i'm just trying to get use to university life
lol

stressed up
things are a lil rushy for me in union
Band Edge this wed
SPree! Card to be launched soon
i just hope the weekend activity dun come too soon
i'm can't wait for week 16
finish the god damn examinations
and get my first year in sp over and done.
that's if i dun get barred from exams.

overall
i'm damn tired of my life right now.

dammit
it's 2.40 now and i can't slp
dunch know why either
i slept at 9.30pm and woke up at 1. wtf
maybe i'm a lil too excited over the hockey match later
hee. too eager to prove myself i guess
and i seriously dun wish to lose

idiotic weather
i seriously hate this season
one min. the sun could be killing u
the next it could be raining cats and dogs.
and with so many outdoor activities lately
i keep getting drenched
and Mr. Flu comes into the picture here

oh gawd
i missed lessons 3 days out of 4 this week
el oh el
not on purpose la!
i woke up late, too sick to get up.
and i've yet to know my results for MST
i hope everything turns out fine.

yayy!
i received my letter from youth flying club!
i'm gonna start orientation on 4 feb
and hopefully start flying in 3 mths time!
or izit 1 mth? aiya watever la

rofl
i heard that R is no longer coaching?!?
or rather, not the pri sch that he dominated with.
no idea why
but it seems that he's moving out of the sport?
maybe. no longer seen at the studio on sundays
that's wat i heard

oh yes!
i forget to mention that
SPSU won CSCC in Union Month's captain's ball game!
hahahaha
sort of had my revenged, and the opponents were a lil pissed with me i guess
nah, it's just part of the game. mind over body
maybe because they dun have that tall-like-giant blocker
hahaha.
anyway, 16-11. gg
oh. not to mention that we lost 33-8 to the basketball team
=x

btw.. i scrapped the song on my blog
coz after so long
i thought it sounded too corny.

she didn't give me a chance.....
at all

i'm damn upset now.
thoroughly.

can you believe it
we lost our captain's ball match against CSCC
no offence to their team
but i thought we play better
plus we were more organised
it was our lack of hunger for scoring
and the damn-tall-like-giant CSCC defender who denied our points
that caused us the game.
now that my only chance of playing inter-cons in semi-finals has vanished,
I'M DAMN SAD!

hectic day
lessons from 8
all the way till 4
erm, i skipped the 10-11.30 lecture though.
then had GEMs from 1-3
and CRS make-up lesson from 3-4
before i rushed off to help out with Union Month
and then inter-cons

once again,
SPSU won its soccer match
this time against CLS
7-1 if i'm not wrong
referee as kayu as ever
and lazy.
nevertheless, three cheers for SPSU soccer team.

dammit
i almost got cramp on my calf during hockey just now
lol. exercise and exercise
and i hate the rain.
i got drenched like fark

phew
1 more mth before the end of year 1
and before the 46th council step down.
gonna do my very best for everything
get gd grades
and produce results for union!

i guess i'm lost.
totally lost
i dun know if i'm doing certain right or not
i'm not sure if i should carry on
and at times, i'm thought i should just give up.

down with a flu again.
i just hate the rainy season
dunch know if it's just plain unlucky or coincidence
everytime before my hockey trainings or inter-cons
it would rain
and i could stupidly not change before i go to slp last nite.
i got drenched a little before inter-cons
and was perspiring a little while refereeing the captain's ball game.
i just jumped onto my bed and slp the minute i reached home
the next morning, ARCHOO!

so i missed my meeting
the basketball training
and watever i'm supposed to do
wat the hell.

couldn't ask for a worse debut
my hockey match was screwed.
i didn't play well, not that i always do
but it was seriously bad
we let in 3 goals, and had none
my name was called out by my coach most of the time
not because i was playing well
but because he thought i was out of position.
and seriously, i hate that match
the image of me mis-hitting the ball is always there
damn it
wat a fuckthup game.

when something goes wrong
everything goes wrong for u
i don't know if i should make it clear to her
for i know it's not the right time
and i do not wish to get a wrong answer
maybe keeping things like this would be better.

haven't been blogging for days
yes, busy
with my MST
and trainings here and there
i'm dying soon.

weeee...
i'm playing for SCC in this sat's Under-21s hockey tournament
Singapore Cricket Club
dun ask me why i play hockey in cricket club
i won't reply.
sorta excited, first tournament ever for a club.
there's the lions team and the cubs team
RAWR!
nono. i'm in the cubs. so... MEOW!
watever la

inter-cons was screwed for basketball
i duno if we're unlucky or wat
we sorta got a group of stronger teams
anyway, we got thrashed 14-105 against DE
lol ain't it?
well, we tried our best
maybe not so lucky for us.

argh
late nights plus the trainings
my pimples all popping out!
lol.
how wonderful

oh well
gonna go study hard
last paper tml.
WEEEE!

happy new year to all
a slow year for me i would say
can u believe it, i'm turning 18 in 3mths time! =x
2005 was a terrifying year for me
and i do hope 2006 will be much better

anyway, i sort of "celebrated" new year with calvin
was at town with him
last min. decision, and we were at esplanade just in time for fireworks
with nth left to do, we went to cine
at e2max, gaming session.
i thought it was a little waste of money.

as i bid farewell to 2005
the memories stayed
just 11 mths ago, i was preparing to leave for m'sia
competiting for national glory
and i brought home 2 bronze
couldn't ask for a better trip, got to know more friends
and got to bond with those i already knew.

weeks later, controversy emerged
and i was totally distracted by that
confused and fustrated about it
i couldn't make a decision,
until i was suspended from training
ha. it was a gd break for me anyway

and then i got into poly,
met knew friends, classmates
goodness how time flies
i'm already in poly for 6 mths
and i love my poly life right now,
aside from my class.

of coz
the day when we seperated
it seemed i had lost hope
and i didn't know which direction to head
if i could turn back time
if only i could
but i can't.